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Jumping Back on the Wagon

I remember in the past when I used to crave greasy, unhealthy, fattening, yet super-tasty food (heck, I almost often do). After a few months or so of hard work, I’d say to myself, “Why not? You deserve it”, and commence to hitting up a favorite spot to pig out on a large helping of delicious food bliss.

Then, I’d do it again.

And again…

And before I knew it, I was stuck in a rut.

I didn’t want to go back to eating the way I was eating before again. I didn’t have the motivation to. I didn’t have the desire to eat healthy meals anymore. It was like I triggered my brain about all of the tasty food out there, and because it’s sometimes a scumbag (lol), it switched back to the unhealthy mode that it knew and adhered to for most of my life.

Not only that, but I would stop checking for motivation in other areas. I no longer wanted to exercise as much. Eventually, it would come to a halt, altogether. I no longer wanted to find before and after pictures of people on their fat loss journeys. Before, these pictures really used to boost my motivation. In fact, when I did come across people who shared pictures of their amazing progress, I would find myself quickly scrolling past. I no longer wanted to read success stories. My mood flipped a complete 180 degrees.

Guilt

I felt guilty. I felt like I let myself down because I fell so far to the wayside of what I considered to be healthy eating habits and behavior. And this guilt cycled on. I felt guilty because I stopped working out. I began to feel miserable. The thought of working out made me feel miserable. The thought of NOT working out made me feel miserable. I felt guilty for simply feeling guilty.

A Change is Gonna Come

I’m grateful for growth. Sometimes, all it takes is time and development of self before you can realize:

“Ahhh, I get it.”

You’ve got to learn when to nip some things in the bud. You’ve also got to change your way of reacting to other things. I can say I’ve learned these two things.

A couple weeks ago, I ended up going to several restaurants and ordering meals that were far from what I told myself I would order. Whether being invited by family and/or coworkers or going to these places on my own will, repeatedly, I indulged in anything I wanted.

And guess what showed up? Yep. That guilt.

After eating everything on my plate, and feeling myself stuffed to the point of uncomfortableness, I felt guilty.
Just as I felt that guilt trying to slide into the point of no return, I stopped it dead in its tracks. Even though I didn’t want to, I made myself find pictures of people who were successful in this journey. I forced myself to reach others’ stories and see peoples’ smiling faces. It’s weird typing it out, but I had to remind my forgetful brain that these individuals were not smiling because they were being smug or because they were taunting me. They were smiling because they were genuinely happy and proud of their progress – as they should be! I reminded myself that success is not always linear. It often peaks and valleys.

After this, I felt loads better. I did not fall off. I did not diminish my progress by enjoying all that food – not by a long shot. I adjusted back to my new lifestyle and kept it going. I continued to work out. I continued to be proud of myself.

And this, my friends, is what it’s all about.

You constantly have to remind yourself of your goals…Even if it makes you uncomfortable.


 

I’d love to hear if you have been in a similiar situation and/or ways in which you have overcome your hurdles. Feel free to comment below or shoot me a message!

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